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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

i should be….

i should be studying for finals. i should be studying but everyday now i run home to check my favorite blogs, a list that grows uninhibited. i should be studying but every blog i read makes me feel a little more normal and connected, so that i keep reading as time marches on. the chores are done, dinner was served and cleaned up, and i am home alone. i'm alone and my time is mine. i should choose school but for a moment school is not what i want. all i want is to be here, quietly contemplating the thoughts of my invisible friends, of my invisible family. all i want is to know you and be known. to embrace you as you cry and shed a tear of my own. to laugh together as we share our blunders and foes. to exist in a world that is increasingly accepting. i should be, but i'm not...and i'm okay with that.

4 Comments:

Blogger aunt kim said...

I should be saving all of your posts and submit them to a publisher! You are hilarious :)

8:22 PM  
Blogger ♥ joleen ♥ said...

so touching and honest. i know what you mean. it's a wonderful world, isn't it? :)

8:37 PM  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

knowing and being know...that is the beauty of this amazing community. you capture my feelings perfectly.

9:10 AM  
Blogger Joleen's Mom said...

I'm glad you're okay with that. It's really okay to take a time out for you! You deserve it! :)

11:33 AM  

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